Tuesday, August 19, 2014

Sermon: For Just a Time as This

For Just a Time as This
Tenth Sunday after Pentecost
August 17, 2014
Genesis 45:1-15
Romans 11:1-2a, 16-21, 29-32

When I was in college I attended the midweek services held at the theological school. Occurring 3 days a week, these services were open to everyone, never lasting more than an hour. I stumbled across this service one day and began attending regularly. These midweek services were such a pick me up amid papers to be written, tests to be taken and various commitments. They helped to center me and focus me. They also helped me to form connections with individuals who helped me affirm my call in ministry.
See I had avoided this call for a while. I preached my first sermon at 14, led worship for various events, facilitated small groups in high school, and got involved with the non-denominational Christian group on campus within a month of starting college. Yet I still resisted about what I was called to do. It was easier to say “it’s not for me”, “I must be misunderstanding God” or even “I’m too scared to do this”. But as time has gone on I have slowly let down my walls and guard and allowed God to work.
During my junior year I got introduced to the Communities of Shalom. This group sponsored by the United Methodist Church and housed at Drew University began as a response to the conditions and aftermath of the Los Angeles riots in 1992. Communities of Shalom trains and equips local ministry teams in asset-based and collaborative approaches to systemic change, economic prosperity, healing and health and sustainability.[1]Essentially you are trained to become a community organizer for a pre-determined zone. The Shalom Zone model has been replicated throughout the United States and around the world.
As an undergraduate the Shalom program was not really open to me. But after discussion and approval of the deans I was able to go through certification to become a Shalom minister. That summer I got placed in Washington State to work with a homeless feeding program organizing volunteer involvement and programming. The original position transitioned into so much more and provided interactions with those who were struggling but still maintained their faith and trust in God despite their situations. I learned so much that summer about ministry and about myself. It shifted how I acted and reacted to certain circumstances and allowed me to enter my senior year knowing seminary was the next step after graduation.
Starting seminary and continuing has been an adventure in itself but through it all I have been affirmed and reminded of my calling and the path God has laid for me. I have tried to encourage, nurture and learn more about my gifts, and I don’t think I will ever be able to stop doing this.
Our Romans passage tells us “for the gifts and the calling of God are irrevocable”. To have something be irrevocable means not able to be changed or reversed, to be permanent. We ALL have gifts, strengths, and skills that are part of us and are meant to be shared with the world. The interactions we have with others at different parts of our lives help to shape and mold us into the fullest beings we can be. By ignoring what God has tasked us with I believe we will always feel like a part of us is empty or unsettled. If God has granted you with a skill he will help you to truly express it. What is God calling you to do?
In our Old Testament lesson we continue our story from last week about Joseph. We find Joseph reconnecting with his brothers years after they sold him into slavery and after he has raised in ranks of the Egyptian government. With this new position of power we might expect to find a changed Joseph, one who is cold and authoritative. I expect him to yell, scream, tell his brothers how terrible they are, have the Egyptians thrown them in prison, or even kill them. Yet we find a man so overcome with his joy at seeing his brothers he weeps loudly, a Joseph who has come to terms with their actions, one who sees the hand of God in this whole adventure.
Eight chapters earlier we are introduced to Joseph. He is his father’s favorite son, He ticks off his brothers because he has symbolic dreams of them bowing to him and they hate him. Joseph’s ability for interpretation was what saved him in Egypt. By correctly interpreting and guiding Pharaoh Joseph is taken care of and given a high position. This power allows him to take care of his family during an intense drought. His interpretations allowed for planning to occur seven years earlier. It was not an instant solution; rather actions were taken place over time for the right time. In all of these ups and downs Joseph continues to look to God for help and guidance, un-wavering.
Each of us and our lives have purpose. Are we leaving to fulfill this? A woman I know from college has been inspiring me recently. I only knew her through others but thought she had such a beautiful spirit. Almost 4 months ago she began to sell head wraps. She designed them and sewed them and started selling a few at a time. The response to her creation was enormous. In these short months she has expanded to jewelry, head chains, skirts and t-shirts. While her products are beautiful I think it’s the message behind that is really inspiring. She has named her company “Fanm Djanm” which means “strong woman”. Her belief is “that there are strong women everywhere. Some know their strength, and others haven't yet figured theirs out. This brand is to empower women from all walks of life to be bold, beautiful, and powerful.”[2] Many have been inspired by her mission, realizing their worth and encouraging others to realize the same. Her mission is inspiring but also a challenge of sorts for us. Does our life have a mission?
In a world that seems to be going crazy with violence and hatred among strangers, communities, neighbors and friends, what are we doing to encourage peace? What actions are we taking to build each other up? There are so many things we have each been gifted with to use. These gifts may not always be gifts of song or public speaking, maybe you are a great listener, or you work well with children, or you are intentional with friendships and nurturing them. Are you recognizing these gifts for the beauty they hold?
As we prepare for a new church year have you been wrestling with getting involved with a ministry here? Have you been questioning your job or relationships? Pray on them, question yourself, honor the gifts you have been given. Begin to do something or get involved with something that makes your soul smile.  I encourage you in the words of Joseph “Hurry”. You are prepared and preparing for just a time as this.


Sunday, August 10, 2014

Joy in the midst of Grief

This past week I went to a viewing with my fiance. It was a friend of his, a football brother from the first team he played on in college. This friend was young, in his early 30s with young kids. His death was tragic and unexpected. I went to support and be there for my love and try to be strong when he could not.

As he said his goodbyes to this friend and reminisced with other football brothers a wail arose from the mother; there is nothing quite as shattering as the cry of a mother who is preparing to bury her child. As the receiving line continued past her the wailing subsided and amid the tangible grief in the room she laughed.

It was a short burst and if you weren't paying attention you could have missed it. Yet it reminded me there is joy in grief; joy as you go over memories, see friends and family who you have lost contact with, meet those who loved your love one as you did. It also reminded me that not only in grief, but in everything we do we should give into our emotions. This mother went through a spectrum of emotions and will continue to but she is allowing herself to  feel.

We get so good in society bottling up our anger, frustrations and even joys. But we are not living out as our intentional selves. I challenge us to allow our self to feel in the moment, allowing nothing to be bottled up.


Friday, August 8, 2014

Re-Devotional: July 28-31 Re-energize

July 28th
ReEnergize

"you are snared by the utterance of your lips, caught by the words of your mouth." 
Proverb 6:2 (NRSV)

As I've gone through this month of devotional writing I have learned more about my faith, but more importantly about me. I've realized while I've fed my leadership I haven't always fed my self, I've allowed work to prioritize relationships, among other things. As the above passage shows I have made promises or stated things without follow up or intention of doing so. But none of these ways are me, rather I had let life get in the way of living.

Over the last few weeks we've had numerous events where my entire intention was to have low key events that highlight the awesomeness of our city. We've explored Governors Island, hung out afterwork, went dancing on the HighLine, played mini golf on Randall's Island, supported the theater camp, and had brunch with pastor Cathy. Each of these events, and the planned august ones, are allowing us to get to know each other outside of Sunday. This is so important for the church as a whole. We need to not be a people who part ways Sunday but ones who live out the relationships formed on Sundays. 

I am so grateful that I got a reality check these last few weeks. I pray that you have been challenged to think about your interactions, reactions and relationships differently. Thank you for journeying with me. 

Magnificent God may we live lives more fully to show your kingdom on earth. Amen.

July 29th
ReEnergize

There's something so fun about using filters on pictures. A filter can add emotion or a mood. I must admit when I started on Instagram I would spend so much time trying to find the perfect filter for every picture I posted. Over time I stopped caring about the filters used or cropping it perfectly and just cared about sharing memories. I got to connect with friends from high school and share fun moments and milestones with my family who live out of state. Now it's rare that I use filters for my photos.

In my relationships and interactions I used to think an increase of time was what was important. I would spend so much time going to things and planning multiple get togethers in a day. As I've grown I've learned that intentional moments are more important. I try to plan get togethers with nothing after so I can extend time if necessary. I try to be fully present, not focusing on other things that take me out of the moment.

In my life I hope to live fully, not adding things just to add but living as much in the moment as I can. May we each be intentional in all we do.

Holy One may we be intentional, not crowding our lives with fluff. Amen


July 30th
RE-ENERGIZE

One of my favorite thing about staying at a hotel is that they remake the bed every day. Growing up my dad was a stickler that we should always make our bed before leaving the house. I remember having to remake the bed if it wasn't made "right". In high school my daily bed making skills started to fall by the wayside since I was constantly on the go. In college I made sure the quilt was relatively straight. As I've gotten older I must say coming home to a made bed is one of life's simple pleasures.

In my faith life I've also learned that it's the simple things that are the most lasting. One of the practices I've tried to stick to is praying in the moment. It's so easy to say "yes I'll pray for you" and forget to do it. It's harder but simpler to pray in the moment, meeting someone in their immediate request.

Today I challenge you to pray in the moment, either with the person or immediately after you learn about the situation needing prayer.

Great God help me to live in the moment, turning to simpler practices that draw me to you. Amen


July 31st
RE-ENERGIZE

A friend posted on fb the other day:
 
"yesterday I was making excuses to a friend about not having time to workout and they said to me 'there's no other way?'. So today's message on getting to your goals: make another way. It's just that simple."
It was a huge affirmation for me. Every time I've been unhappy or felt like I wasn't using my potential it's because I did what I was supposed to do, not what felt right. On the flip side when I've done what felt good in my heart I have been happy and everything felt like it was going towards my goals and dreams. As we continue through life making decisions about jobs, living arrangements and relationships I hope we all make decisions that lead to the ultimate goals we have set for ourselves.
Holy one help me to make a way so I can achieve my dreams and goals. Amen
 

Re-Devotional: July 21-27 Retrace

July 21st
Retrace

Over time I've realized how important repetition is to truly understand something and make it stick. The first time I made my moms potato salad I freaked out that I couldn't do it. I've eaten this salad for years, yet had no confidence that I could make it myself. But as I began to prep ingredients and mix things together I began to remember each time I made it with her and the little tricks she had. Things were familiar and when it was done it tasted just like hers.

In my faith journey whenever I start a new devotional or a study group I get nervous that I won't get anything from it. But my involvement in the process is what makes the difference. I must remember that I know there is something that can speak to me if I ready myself for it. I must remember that my faith is not made up of one experience but multiple moments. I must remember to retrace my steps, and move forward.

Lord may I strive to learn from the things in my past to make me better for you. Amen


July 22nd
Retrace

When I was younger my mom had us walk everywhere. We would walk to museums, to play dates, to school or to the park. My favorite times when we were in the park and mom let us choose random paths to follow. Sometimes the paths were paved, sometimes they were pure dirt. You could tell which paths were commonly used, which were rarely used, and which had been created over time. With each path you tend to wonder who walks them and why. As I've gotten older it's been fun to walk past some of these paths I explored and think about the adventures had.
I recently stumbled across a prayer journal I had in high school and came across a quote from Shel Silverstein's The Giving Tree that I had felt was so relatable then and still applies today:
"And after a long time the boy came back again.
"I am sorry, Boy," said the tree, "but I have nothing left to give you-
My apples are gone."
"My teeth are too weak for apples," said the boy.
"My branches are gone," said the tree.
"You cannot swing on them-"
"I am too old to swing on branches," said the boy.
"My trunk is gone," said the tree.
"You cannot climb-"
"I am too tired to climb," said the boy.
"I am sorry," sighed the tree.
"I wish that I could give you something... but I have nothing left. I am an old stump. I am sorry..."
"I don't need very much now," said the boy, "just a quiet pleace to sit and rest. I am very tired."
"Well," said the tree, straightening herself up as much as she could,
"well, an old stump is a good for sitting and resting. Come, Boy, sit down. Sit down and rest."
And the boy did.
And the tree was happy."
I challenge you to do something that brought you joy as a child and find something to do as an adult that brings that same joy!

Ever present God help me to hold fast to memories that bring happiness to my life. Amen


July 23rd
Retrace

So I must admit that one of my favorite movies is Chocolat. I pretty much drop everything when it comes on TV and regrettably I loaned my copy to someone senior year of college and never got it back. One of my favorite story lines is the narrative of why they wander. The north wind pulls them, uproots them even, leading to a history of no real connections with others, just the knowledge of chocolate and its ability to affect love, health and other relationships among individuals. Although a fictional account our main actress plays her part of knowledgeable chocolatier so well. Her knowledge is part of her, a way she relates to her ancestors and connects to her late mother.

As I prepare to get married I've gotten to hear stories of grandparents and great grandparents, adventures during childhood, and amazing memories of trips from my future-in-laws. Its been lovely to experience these memories for the first time and get excited to make my own memories with this extended family. Memories are a great way to share pieces of your heart with others.

May you find the courage to share your favorite memory with a friend.

Holy one we are grateful for the gift of remembering. Help us to share the stories that make us, us. Amen


July 24th
Retrace

When I have lost something the worst thing you can say to me is "well did you look at the places you were" or something to that affect. Its frustrating because it usually is in the one place I forgot about that the lost thing was left...

And in this same way when I feel low in my faith and someone tells me to read the bible or pray about it I get frustrated beyond belief. I think its frustrating because I know thats what I should do and its also obvious thing to do. But we need to retrace our steps sometimes, not because we've forgotten but because we need a reminder.

May we have the courage to go back to the familiar and start again.

Lord help me to retrace my steps to remind me of my beginnings and my possibilities, Amen 


July 25th
Retrace

I went to a conference yesterday. It was about exploring the rhythm of worship in music and word-the heartbeat of God. The theme for this conference was based off a NPR talk where they shared that music syncs our heart with those around us, there is a shared rhythm created. During the keynote we were asked how do we engage one another so our heartbeats sync? There was no golden answer, rather we were challenged to be vulnerable and that this syncing requires risk.

As we went through the rest of the day and all the workshops I was challenged to think about times I have and have not taken risk. I was reminded of the fear of being vulnerable. I was encouraged that I need to be willing to be open and willing to change, acting out of faith.

How many times have each of us let fear and uncertainties control us and our decisions? We cannot change past actions but we can push forward when fear starts to take hold.

May we think of how we can continually move forward for better relationship with self, others and God.

Holy one, three in one, help me to sync to the heartbeats around me finding mutuality with all. Amen


July 26th
Retrace

My favorite hymn is Hymn of Promise. I have loved this song since I was six and even plan on having it sung at my wedding in a few weeks. The song talks about the changes that happen in seasons, in animals and in our lives,. Yet within these changes there is a promise of newness and beauty emerging. For me its such a reminder that God reveals and fulfills promises in her time, not mine.

A friend of mine posted on instagram the other day that she had created a new vision board. For as long as I have known her she has had one of these. On it she posts pictures, phrases, and quotes that inspire her to reach a particular goal. In college her board consisted of a diploma, the date of our expected graduation, a house, a list of schools she was looking at for her masters and  numerous other things. The goal was getting into a master program. As she fulfilled many of her goals or created numerous new ones a new vision board was created. 

Like this friend we all create vision boards, they just arent always physical. We have all prayed for things, new adventures, and new relationships but God in his infinite wisdom shows us the answers to these things when its the proper time. May we each remember our visions for our lives "unrevealed until its season, something God alone can see"*.

Holy one, help me to rely on your time and to continually have new visions for life. Amen.

*Hymn of Promise, UMH #707
 

July 27th
Retrace

I love looking through old pictures. There's something awesome about remembering every event and moment or hearing stories about pictures you don't know about. When I was growing up my mom used to go through family pics whenever we asked. Through her stories I got to learn about my grandmother and other family members. 

When I read the bible I love the numerous stories we are given. The different aspects of God we are introduced to remind me of the Holy Ones awesomeness and complexity. Yet we are also reminded that God is able to respond to all our issues and situations. I am comforted knowing I have a God who understands every fear, joy and in between emotion.

May we always aim to listen to the stories told to us.

Lord may I remember that you are able to meet all my needs. Amen